Hello beautiful listeners, supporters and friends,
I’ve made some things! I’ve nearly finished my fourth album and it’s a beauty. A strange beauty. It’s genre-less. It’s open and from the heart, as always. It was hard to write, harder to make. The stories in it have wrecked me while I wrote them but it has brought me so much peace to let them out and let them go.
Some days I’d be full of confidence about what I was making, other days I had nothing to give and felt completely overwhelmed and lost. I’m piecing things back together, little by little, slower than ever before. Gaps between each burst of creativity.
The beauty of taking my time is that I get to really feel every step, pausing between the busier moments and sitting with feelings and sounds and songs for longer. Questioning, listening, wondering. Rediscovering parts of myself that I haven’t seen since I was a little girl. Finding joy in playing a piano and following that feeling. Saying ‘let’s hit record and see what happens’ even though it’s been 15 years since I last played one properly.
Seeing what happens is beautiful. Walking off the track is too. I’m so far off the track sometimes, I think I’m lost. But I look up, find Orion and breathe. And know that I’m right where I need to be, even if I don’t understand it.
I’ve been a difficult artist, constantly changing my mind. Being strong and sure and weak and vulnerable all at once. Asking for what I need and taking it and throwing it away and asking for something else.
I am searching, uncovering.
I am exploring.
I can’t wait to show you the things I’ve found.